
I remember when I realised that I had the desire to enter full time ministry. There was a conviction, an understanding that the call would require much from me.
Ezra 7:10
For Ezra had set his heart to study the Law of the Lord, and to do it and to teach his statutes and rules in Israel.
Setting my Heart
When I read those Words, I was stirred into action. Together with the account of the Road to Emmaus, I decided that I will enter the full time ministry. I would give up my guitars and serve!
But I didn't do that.
In reality, I continued to feed my personal desire to perform with my little spoken-word band. My desire to play guitar and to play live did not abate. It would not since I provided sustenance.
Deny Myself
I recall the words of the Lord in Luke 9:23 -
And he said to all, "If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.
That runs with Ezra ya?
It was a dream - to rock out with the guitar and play for crowds. I love the sounds and the stage. These things are not evil in itself... But the call was issued and I committed.
Remember the Call
Time to give to God what is His; my heart and my self.
Thank God for showing me this through the efforts of my lovely fiance. If not for her warnings and steadfast insistence (that I remember my calling), I would have jeopardized my commitment. She is truly the help meet for me.
Ah, now to get on and do it. Dear Lord, this will hurt. A lot. But the reward will be all satisfying. It will be.
John 12:26
If anyone serves me, he must follow me; and where I am, there will my servant be also. If anyone serves me, the Father will honor him.
