Here's an interesting account in the book of Numbers that set me thinking about what I think I believe in...
Numbers 22:21-22
21So Balaam rose in the morning and saddled his donkey and went with the princes of Moab. 22But God’s anger was kindled because he went...
A bit of context here before I move on - so we read here in Numbers 22, Balak summoned Balaam to come and curse the children of Israel. Balaam decided to wait and see what God would have him to do and God told him not to go. Balak was denied but tried asking again and so Balaam went to check with God again. This time, God said go.
Thus Balaam went... and "God's anger was kindled".
How can that be? Didn't God just tell Balaam to go? (Num 22: 20)
Now, pause a moment here. This is where I immediately thought - "Did God go back on His Word?"
What an
absurd notion to even consider that! The Scriptures are clear that "God is not a man that He should lie" (Num 23:19) In fact, the very idea of holiness set forth in the Word demands a God of Truth! Why would I even think that God could have gone back on His word? Instead, the Scriptures are clear that God sees the heart (1 Sam 16:7 and
more), not just the actions, therefore Balaam could have "obeyed" God for all the wrong motives. This is clear from 2 Pet 2:15.
So this is the thing I'm bothered about: If I understand the holiness of God from Scripture, why would my thoughts immediately spring to fault Him? I know that for my good friends, I would say things like "Oh, he would never do that... he's not like that!". Why not God? Hmmmm....